April 23, 1997
"The accusations, such inuendo..."
The following is not mine. I wish I had written it. But I didn't. I got permission from the author to post this. I don't feel this anymore and can hardly remembe what it feels like to feel this bad. But I was there and that I must not forget those who remain behind.
Lest we forget that even though we may have come out of the darkness, there are others who have not and suffer still...
........ life sucks.
wish I didn't have one.
I'm not suicidal, coz I promised someone I wouldn't kill myself, and I can't
break a promise.
but I hate my life,
I hate myself.
Crying so much I cant' even see the screen any more.
cut off from everything and everyone.
feeling shitty.
can't find the way through this shit.
can't cope with it anyway.
can't communicate
can't even post anything worth your time and money downloading it
just a worthless piece of nonsense in a sea of hate and pain.
waiting for something but not knowing what
wondering how much of what I see and know is a lie.
wondering if I'm getting deafer.
knowing I'm getting stupider.
worthless pointless useless pathetic...
call yourself a wolf, do you?
youre more like a slug.
horrid and hateful.
Cant' stop crying.
make it stop someone, please make the pain go away.
no-one ever claimed life was easy, but no one ever told me it was harder than
diamond either.
no use to anyone.
may as well not exist.
at least then I wouldnt' be scared.
I should go back to my "home" and do some homework, but I'm scared.
It's getting dark outside, and I'm scared to leave here at least I'm safe here
want to cut myself so much, slash slash slash slash.
No-one here could give a fuck anyway, no-one around here would even notice if
i was kidnapped by aliens. At least that would be something.
why bother?
Wolfbitch
"I think if you have truly tried to live then it's ok to cry"
Picked up Colette after work and came home for a bit. The cable man called me back and after I had spoken with him about setting up an account he said he was within 10 minutes of my apt. and would be there within 15 to get us set up!! I think I gave up my 15 minutes of fame for this!!! It's like furniture people coming when you ask instead of saying "sometime between 6.00A and Midnight....". How neat!!!! There may be nothing to watch out there but the picture is just great!!! At least Colette liked it.
Now for uploadsville...
Be Joyous!
Drew
<Smokin, Drinkin (Orange Juice) and Cussin a blue streak ....>
"You'll pay the price ...."
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